I'm beginning to feel happy regularly. It's like a new kind of normal. A peaceful, rather pleasant place. Got bad moments but internally something is shifting. I've hoped for this kind of shift and been disappointed so many times.
It's like this wart on my left big toe. I've been trying to get rid of it since like February 2009. Thought it would be a matter of weeks but no. I've thought I've gotten rid of it like 4 times but it keeps reappearing. This morning it seemed to come off but I'm skeptical. If it stays gone a month, I'll believe it.
The knot in my back, the one that has chronically been tight for as long as I can remember, well, it's not. How long will it take gone before I believe it?
I'm afraid to talk about it for fear of jinxing it or disappointing people along with myself when it comes back.
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